MKE Week 2 – Die Another Day
I hope you all read my DMP and are thinking about it every second of every day If you aren’t you should!!
I am very antsy this week. I badly want to be enjoying autumn back home with my peeps. But I’m stuck here in stupid Hawaii wishing I was cold. I only have 2 more years here, which is not much at all, but I catch myself all the time looking for apartments in MA or NH that I could move into right now. I believe this is my old blueprint trying to get me revert back to the old ways. I have a plan. If the universe wants to drop something in my lap to get me home faster I am all for it but i can’t be messing with it out of antsyness. That is how all the work I have done goes down the drain. I trust the universe, I trust my subconscious to make my DMP happen. So why I am looking for ways out? Why I am looking for a change?
That damned old blueprint that’s why!! I want instant gratification. I want to be enjoying fall now! I could do it. I have the means to move back right this second. But I wont have my Yellow House. I wont have my babies! I wont have my big fancy car. Moving and getting what I want right now could put some or all of my dharma in jeopardy. AND IM STILL LOOKING FOR APARTMENTS!! Emotions are strong creatures. I badly want this, fall makes me happy. But I can transfer those emotions with training. Other things make me happy. Things that will help me get to my final destination. So all I have to do it transfer or replace those thought of wanting to be in New England now to wanting to build a list, or wanting to answer my emails in the most timely fashion. The law of substitution and law of dual though are wonderful weapons to have in my arsenal.
I still slip, obviously, I make dumb choices. I say dumb things. I ver off my chosen path. The key is getting right back on! No shame, no judgment, just peace and calm and satisfaction.
The Universe and I are making some epic shit happen. I know it to be true, therefore it is true.