Week 14 – Perhaps

Perhaps I was being kinder. Perhaps I was just calmer, less expectant of a result being manifested. But nonetheless, I spent a day with my wife where our communication was at a very high level. Perhaps I’ve come to understand and so has she that the clarity of a message verbalized is important but maybe not as important as the recipient’s ability to acknowledge, interpret, restate – if necessary and respond to that message that was received.

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Maybe it’s me being more patient and she is reflecting that patience. It’s not really clear. But I’m happy with the new state and so is she. It’s been difficult through the holidays, a time when relaxation should be paramount, yet stress and illness made an appearance.

I have made an effort to allow my feelings to have a more visible, tactile representation – more embraces, more handshakes, more smiles, more laughter, more eye contact. It is something I do normally but as a dear friend used to say, “I’m making a concentrated effort” to do more.

Recognizing the manifestation of the results of these efforts is interesting. Earlier this week I attended a social event, I met a few people, had interesting conversation, and exchanged contact information. Some of those people have called to follow-up and share helpful information. A few called with just a desire to continue the conversation and be friendly.

Perhaps I’m getting back on track.

Perhaps I’m coming into my own.

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Week 13 – A Hero for Someone

So I got out of the hospital the first week in December 2017.

All good, ready to go, check with my doctors, back on track.

Then, I got a stomach virus a week later. All good, ready to go, check with my doctor, back on track.

Then, I got a cold/flu 2 weeks later. All good, ready to go, check with my doctor, back on track.

Sometimes you just have to laugh at the circumstances. Get back up, go to work.

Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship. I needed to hear that. In my weakness, my vulnerability, I began to accept discouragement as a reward for my health hurdles.

But I am nature’s greatest miracle. What discouraged me, is well within the realm of my miraculous ability to overcome! I have to overcome. There are people unknown to me, who are dependent upon me. My future self has appointments and commitments to honor. Remember?

The power of those future meetings played out in a video I saw just recently. When a hero shares his vision with you and you realize that you too are the same, a hero for someone.

Fall down seven times, get up eight.

 

Week 12 – Derailed

I was shocked and felt so very bad when I saw that Amtrak high-speed train derailment in Washington State on the news on December 18th. I worried about the people on that train, their families, the people on the highway below, and their families. It was very traumatic. But I couldn’t understand why it impacted me so much for the next few days.

The more I thought about why I was feeling so down about this tragic event, the more confused I became. But then it became clear, I just said it to myself. “I do not want to identify as a train wreck. Then why can’t I stay on track?”

Wait this is startling, I must be making this up. But I said it to myself? So I started to really analyze what I was doing. I was deferring everything because I had ‘good’ reasons and I was telling myself that I’ll catch up.

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I had ‘things’ to which I couldn’t say no. Yes, but that sacrifice was impacting the bigger desire, correct? Do what then? My choice, decide, get real. Live with it, go forward, and stop whining.

So now I’m in a moment in time when truth speaks loudly to me. “Bill you’re not getting it done. Period.” But why?

Did I set goals, dates, etc. that are too big, too soon?

No. I had an upset, and I need to allow that to just be. Let that rest, I need to just pick up and continue. I can’t think about catching up. I can’t be overwhelmed by that thought. I just need to focus better and discard that which does not lend to the positive path.

I have to be more efficient in my time usage, be more effective in my planning, and be faithful to course. Be more persistent.

At every point where there is a choice, choose my future self.

Get back on track. Do the work.      Train Wreck

Week 11 – This Formula

This formula:

DMP+PMA+POA+MMA=SUCCESS

…is filled with so many key components in order to achieve the desired end result – success.

I struggle with the “am I getting it right” factor. The pace and tempo of keeping it all together is ever so challenging, daunting more accurately. But without the challenge, I feel even more lost.

The balance of natural obligations and commitments, plus the external expectations on my time from others has placed me in a new category of sorts.

Seems I’ve become a spectator to my old life. When I try to insert myself into some old activities, often it feels awkward, strained. Or it feels really comfortable but I sense an urgency to shorten the stay or hasten the activity.

I seem to be standing on the brink. Not really comfortable where I was and not really certain where I’m heading. But craving the unknown and only briefly desiring to engage the past.

My life is governed by law… now breathe Bill.

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 (Go on, go on, breathe in)

Eyes on the prize, I know sometimes you might fall on your way
Throw your hands up and get down when things don’t fall into place
Mad at the world, yeah I’ve been there before
Lost and confused and thinking that you can’t take anymore

No, no, no, no, worry ’bout nothing, oh, it’s all gonna be good
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you’re really something, oh, didn’t you know that you could
No, no, no, no, worry ’bout nothing, oh, it’s all gonna be good
Don’t worry ’bout nothing, worry ’bout nothing, nothing, oh, it’s all gonna be good

So breathe, like you know you should
Yeah, breathe till you’ve understood
Until you’re feeling like yourself again
Feel the sunlight on your skin
Keep your heartbeat beating
Go on, go on, breathe in

Go on, go on, breathe in
In, out
In, out out out
In, out
Go on, go on, breathe in

Breathe – Mackenzie Ziegler

Week 10 – I Am Whole

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I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. I sincerely had need of this mantra, this affirmation, especially for several days last week. I had a string of very busy days from Thanksgiving through the following Wednesday and I was physically feeling the effects of the activity and lack of sleep.

For the better part of Wednesday I was having a nagging pain in the left side of my chest while working at my church. The pain was something that was a bit of a concern given my medical history. When I left the church I decided to head to the hospital and get checked out. I drove to my sister’s house and my brother-in-law drove me the rest of the way to the hospital.

After initially being checked out in the emergency room, it was suggested that I stay overnight for further testing. It didn’t seem to be serious but cautious steps were advised.

I was somewhat fearful of the outcome and I remember thinking that this whole experience was a setback, one that I could not afford to have happen. Why now? I had too much to do, too many tasks to complete and steps to perform to have this interruption.

But later the next day, I began to think differently. I began to question how much of this event was a choice or maybe an inclination to withdraw from the “new” path and my old blueprint was masterfully rebelling by throwing a wrench into my plans. I also thought it was a crazy notion, but couldn’t help wondering given how powerful the mind can be. Anxiety, stress and doubt had begun to creep back in during those days following Thanksgiving. The sense of being out of control was gaining control.

My testing continued, not revealing anything conclusively negative beyond what I had already known about my health. Prior to every test I would silently repeat, “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.” I was quite gratifying and calming. My cardiologist suggested one final and conclusive test, a CT coronary angiogram. She called it the “gold standard”, used to see if there is a buildup or blockage in the arteries. My affirmation continued, even stronger than before.

When my CT scan results came back, my cardiologist said that there was only very mild buildup in my coronary arteries and I didn’t need to be tested for at least 10 years. Needless to say, I felt quite relieved.

During my stay at the hospital I also felt very grateful for all the care I was being given and the kindness that I was being shown. There are so many people whose entire mission is to be of service and to administer care. That’s not a thing to take for granted.

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There is much to do. I must stay vigilant. As Willie Jolley says, “A setback is nothing but a setup for a comeback!”

This week Mark added “healthy” to the affirmation because True Health is one of his PPN’s. It certainly is one of mine too.

I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, “healthy”, harmonious and happy.

Week 9 – Adhering to Law

What could it mean? The anticipation of news or information that I have been told is coming, sets off triggers. How do I respond? Which triggers am I going to utilize? I do have a choice now. I am aware of the old triggers, I can sense them rearing their ugly little heads. I know them by name – Fear, Anxiety, Worry, Anger…the list goes on and on.

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But – The Law of Substitution can negate those ugly little invaders! I am finding that I need to develop a handy little set of readily available replacement thoughts. A go to set of positive triggers. The surge of panic or frustration that can come on quickly when circumstances present a situation that requires a response can leave me in the lurch. Unless I can quickly shift to a relaxed state – The Law of Relaxation – ­while thinking of anything positive or neutral, the ruminations about what could be or might be can run rampant.

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It seems I am being tested more and more, now that am distancing myself from past practices. Or perhaps I’ve always been tested. But before I was unaware that change was available and I just defaulted to negativity blind to ­– The Law of Forgiveness.

I do find this process this process of thinking about how to think comforting and elevating. The tailoring of my conscious stream of thinking to feed my subconscious – The Law of Subconscious – a rich and healthy supply of seed is a constant process. For the garden will bring forth a harvest likened to the quality of whatever is planted.

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I struggle with – The Law of Dual Thought. Attaching feeling to an idealization sometimes is inconsistent. Does that mean that I’m not truly connected to that ideal or am I just having and off moment or period of time? I do return to that feeling and thought combination, but have I delayed the attraction – The Law of Attraction?

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However The Law of Practice – cements the deal and determines the quality of the final result. I must dutifully practice all aspects of the lessons, I must.  For – The Law of Growth – is in operation no matter what I choose, because the absence of choosing is still a choice.

Week 8 – The Plastic Power

The Master Key, Part Eight

10. Imagination is a plastic power, molding the things of sense into new forms and ideals.

I believe we all take the gift of imagination for granted. If we took the time to appreciate just what a powerful gift imagination truly is, we would be in a constant state of awe.

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So many creative tasks that we all perform daily are first born in our imagination. We create recipes and cook tasty meals to nourish ourselves and our families. We maintain and repair gizmos and gadgets not of our making or design, but yet we have the wherewithal to provide vigilant stewardship. We devise plans to travel to cities and faraway places that we have never been, and we board massive vessels of the sea and glimmering metal giants of flight to embark on adventures at which ancient explorers would marvel and be envious. We reflect on past activities to modify or enhance those efforts, so that future repetition proves to provide more value and efficiency.

But all these things and more, we do with such ritualistic habit that the true genius of the mechanism is lost to us. We have incorporated imagination into our lives as routinely as we inhale.

If we but consider the true power of this gift, utilize its ready potential, focus, and apply constructive thought toward a higher aim – a more seemingly unattainable goal – we become the greatest gift to ourselves. We are then the actualization of who we are designed to be.

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Awakening, isn’t it – to think that mediocrity is not to be accepted but our highest aim should be normal and customary? We are already on that path to our highest aim, for we have accepted the challenge eagerly. We in the Master Keys Experience stand on the brink of our own personal discovery. We in this experience share a unique mission that ironically should be a common one for all. Yet, the masses do not do what we do, nor practice what we practice.

The beauty of it all is that – we get to decide! We decide what that aim is and we get to aim higher or differently, should we desire! We get to observe, modify, discern and reflect. We are the masters of our destination. True North will lead us there, the pulse of our desire will deliver us.

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Stand on the edge and look over; fear not the height. Rather, be amazed at how high we have climbed.

Week 7 – The Cycle of Habit

We are learning so very much about ourselves. We are modifying our current behavior to affect our future behavior by eliminating our past behavior. Habits, the patterns that uniquely define our activity are the core components of our behavior. We fight off the triggers of the old blue print and develop new triggers for the new behavior, the new habit.

In “The power of Habit – why we do what we do”, Charles Duhigg explains the nature of habits, their power, the brain connection and more. His science, human real-life stories and interviews are very compelling.

There is an example of how habits can be created via advertising. Claude Hopkins was a very successful advertising executive. His Pepsodent toothpaste advertising became legendary for his methods that changed advertising and marketing. He found that by creating a trigger or ‘cue’ to brush and the ‘reward’ being white teeth, people willingly created the brushing habit.

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https://buildingpharmabrands.com/2013/05/27/the-ad-that-created-a-habit/

The key to the cycle of ‘cue’ and ‘reward’ is the ‘craving’ that follows. The craving to repeat the process is the peptide release that has to have its way. Reading about this process and understanding it from its conscious/subconscious root gave the text added dimension.

I find that ‘craving’ developing in me. It is in regard to this course experience, in my daily life activity, the way I filter sensory information that I process. From the moment that I awaken, my thoughts are directed to my new “rituals”, my ‘cues’, and my day begins with a self-directed newness.

The craving is essential to turn the driveshaft of the new life I desire. It keeps me vigilant on my path forward. As Mark said, “Live with intention, but pay attention.”

The Master Key, Part Seven

18. Make the Mental Image; make it clear, distinct, perfect; hold it firmly; the ways and means will develop; supply will follow the demand; you will be led to do the right thing at the right time and in the right way.

Earnest Desire will bring about Confident Expectation, and this in turn must be reinforced by Firm Demand.

These three cannot fail to bring about Attainment, because the Earnest Desire is the feeling, the Confident Expectation is the thought, and the Firm Demand is the will, and, as we have seen, feeling gives vitality to thought and the will holds it steadily until the law of Growth brings it into manifestation.

I may not have Pepsodent white teeth, but that passage makes me smile.

 

Week 6 – And Most of All

And Most of All…

I will love myself.

The delirium that came with fever brought tranquility and a state of power such that as a child, I truly believed that anything I thought of doing or attaining was possible. On those hot summer days, the serenity of those moments when there was only the sound of distant cars approaching outside my window, are seared into my memory.

The drone of the engine’s Doppler Effect when approaching, passing and further beyond, until the faintness of the drone disappeared, allowed me to live in the future, present and past, all in the brief duration of the vehicle’s sound. The sound was mesmerizing.

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When the car got just outside my window, a reflection of sunlight from the auto glass was shown across the ceiling of my bedroom, traveling in the opposite direction of the car.  What did it mean? Why did I come to long for that light to appear with each car’s passing?

Somehow even then, in my childish mind I thought that there was more to life than that which I was experiencing. And I wanted more, but I recall being thankful for my life and at peace should it end. But it took these many years for me to get a glimmer of the meaning of what I felt as a child during those days in my sick room.

Life is experience, be thankful for the experience.

It is odd to have that memory still so vivid and haunting. There was a peace that I will never forget in those moments. And a connection to a force much larger than I could know.

The clarity is coming, I am returning to those “childlike” thoughts of doing what seemingly is impossible. Believe in the intention, the desire, the methods will appear. The “tranquility and a state of power” are returning and the fever as well, a burning desire.

“Time teaches all things to him who lives forever but I have not the luxury of eternity.” ― Og Mandino, The Greatest Salesman in the World

But Og also said to be patient, for nature never acts in haste. So I shall stay on the path and follow Emerson’s advice.

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“The law of nature is, Do the thing, and you shall have the power: but they who do not the thing have not the power.” Ralph Waldo Emerson, Compensation

Each night, before bed, I will – “Then go to the mirror and look at yourself, And see what that guy has to say.” The Guy in the Glass – Dale Wimbrow

My accountability is for me to measure.  And most of all I will love myself.

 

 

Week 5 – You Are The Heir!

The Master Key, Part Five

14. There is a fine estate awaiting a claimant. Its broad acres, with abundant crops, running water
and fine timber, stretch away as far as the eye can see. There is a mansion, spacious and cheerful,
with rare pictures, a well-stocked library, rich hangings, and every comfort and luxury. All the heir has
to do is to assert his heirship, take possession, and use the property. He must use it; he must not let it
decay; for use is the condition on which he holds it. To neglect it is to lose possession.
 

15. In the domain of mind and spirit, in the domain of practical power, such an estate is yours. You
are the heir! You can assert your heirship and possess, and use this rich inheritance. Power over
circumstances is one of its fruits, health, harmony and prosperity are assets upon its balance sheet. It
offers you poise and peace. It costs you only the labor of studying and harvesting its great resources.
It demands no sacrifice, except the loss of your limitations, your servitudes, your weakness. It clothes
you with self-honor, and puts a scepter in your hands.

16. To gain this estate, three processes are necessary: You must earnestly desire it. You must
assert your claim. You must take possession.

This section of the Haanel’s The Master Key System lesson, really resonated with me, this week. While working on my DMP, the section relating to my future home was so intensely on my mind that when this correlation appeared in the study session, I got chills.

And then, the instructions during the sit, continued to cause more focus regarding home and hearth. As I focused intently on the mental image of my future home, I thought, “Trust the process, Bill.  If I can be what I will to be, then certainly I can will what I want to have.”

During a sit, the focus brought into view, for just a fleeting moment – the lawn— just a small tuft of grass only a few feet away.  But in the distance, beyond the grass was a blue reflective surface…and then it was gone.  Of course, my conscious-self had to make a claim that it was the lawn in the back of “my future home” that I was seeing.

I had been crafting this image of my home for some time now in my DMP rewrites. So, I was expecting and hopeful for a glimpse of it in my mind’s eye.

All the while, I was framing a story line for my press release on my blog. Moving in and out of concepts, led me to focus on tying it all together— the DMP, the Press Release the Sit…all of it. That’s what this is all about: getting my subconscious ignited, enlivened with imagery, and formulating a definite purpose to pursue.

So it was settled. I would write the press release with my DMP as the core; and I did. So in previewing the new page prior to publishing it in my blog, I realized I had no “picture” of this envisioned property.

Google is a fine friend when it comes to pictures and images, so the search would be simple. I used some combination of ‘house’, ‘pier’, and ‘cove’ to conduct the search for images. Good enough. Now, let’s see what was returned.

There it was, the house that I had envisioned and described in my DMP and press release! Of course, it was there.  There are plenty of houses fitting that description. But this one was actually in the same area near where I had looked on Google Earth when I was daydreaming and researching. It had the huge wall of glass overlooking the cove onto the Chesapeake Bay; it had a pier to the left of the house; three bedrooms—albeit, not five.  But it was so close that I really got excited!

I told my wife to come take a look! She did…and then walked away. I was a little disappointed that she wasn’t excited. But I went back to work on finishing my Press Release.

A little while later my wife came back into the room and said, “It’s not that I wasn’t excited, it’s that I expected it.”

I was a little surprised.

“Those type of things have happened to me,” she explained. “What you should do is keep looking. The house with five bedrooms is still out there.”

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Now, I’m even more excited!