Today, for some reason, I decided to write my new blueprint builder once again. I sat down, took a blank sheet of paper, a fountain pen, and started to write. Then I understood why I had to do it.
As I was writing and reading out loud, I was seeing the words in my mind, putting them on paper, reading them in Mandino’s and Haanel’s… It felt as if I was writing them in me, understanding them for the first time. I remember Davene saying “Link. Link. Link” in week 2 webinar, which had me say “what?!!” And here I was, linking and weaving concepts and ideas.
For me, this week has been about reflecting around the words “eliminating”, “training”, “service” and “stillness”.
Eliminating : To eliminate fear (or any other negative thought / emotion), I don’t have to find ways to overcome it or reassure me so it doesn’t impact me anymore. I must expel it for ever from my life, using my mental magic wand to make it disappear in the moment.
Training: To train the mind, I must gain control of my body and mind. I have a hard time building new habits, but I am starting to see that if I would take just a few seconds to stop and think about what to create (based on what I am thinking in the moment) I could have much different results. Just few seconds to get back in command of the ship.
Service: Power is service. Okay. I realise that the “perfect good girl” that I have been trying to be until now was mistaken. I guess the original intention was to give what I wanted to receive, but instead I have lost myself, and forgot to love and respect myself above everything. I haven’t been an expectation-free human being, I haven’t been a pure, ego-less channel of the Universal. It might be why I am still unsatisfied.
Stillness: Stillness equals control for me at that stage. Controlling the body, controlling thoughts, controlling behaviors, controlling energies… Having tried to eliminate control from my life for so many years (when I was suffering from anorexia as a teenager/young adult), it is interesting for me to try to train to control again.
I’ll manage. And I’ll succeed. For I have decided to be the master of my life in this lifetime.
I’ve been scratching the surface of things. With MKMMA, I realise it’s time to ACT. NOW!
With Love & Gratitude,