I am so happy to be a part of this class…journey…movement. I’m not really sure of the perfect label for what we are doing together. Whatever it is, I’m grateful.
I had an amazing 11 days! I enthusiastically completed my reading and the related exercises for just under two weeks; and, throughout those days, I began to wonder if were doing it all correctly because it didn’t seem like a lot of work. I really wasn’t feeling overwhelmed. I had even started the Happiness Diet on Sunday, 10/1, and things were just moving along swimmingly.
Then, yesterday happened.
I’ve had a “challenging” relationship with one of my business partners for months; and, looking back over the last several weeks, I can see how the relationship began falling apart some time ago.
Throughout the relationship, I’ve been determined to take the high road and I never lost my cool. I used the ho’ oponopono mantra, and worked at forgiveness after every interaction with this person; I used the 5 Second Rule to change my thoughts; I did breathing exercises; I prayed for her; I used tapping; I bounced the situation off my husband; and I did my best to send love to her, when she popped into my mind. I felt like all of this really helped me to stay on course with the Master Key program and deal with the relational difficulties I was experiencing, at the same time. And, as I mentioned, it even occurred to me a few times that I might not be doing things correctly, because I really wasn’t struggling.
Then, yesterday happened. The detail really doesn’t matter. At the end of the day, in our new vernacular, my old blueprint escaped from its little box in my brain and consumed me, almost as a sea monster might go about devouring an unsuspecting dolphin. I didn’t want the old thoughts and feelings to invade my brain and body, but that didn’t seem to matter. I feel a little embarrassed to say that it felt as if there were a part of me that did want to go back to all of that, even though I kept thinking about how great it was to feel happy and hopeful all day.
I lost an entire day to the “yuk of life”. I didn’t read, I didn’t write, and I didn’t do the meditation yesterday; and, I really struggled through the exercises this morning and at noon. HOWEVER, this evening, I feel like I’ve jumped back on the train. I am so thankful I made it, and I didn’t waste another day on all of that nonsense!
I suppose the experience shed a little light on my progress, and, this evening, I’m feeling grateful for the resolve for which I had not been giving myself credit.
Jana’s webinar on speed reading turned out to be so much more and I’m so happy I watched the entire broadcast. Thank you for being here and providing this course! I am truly grateful.
Back on track,