Holy moly . . . my old blueprint is SO strong. I must remember—the world without is a perfect reflection of the world within. Yikes. It still terrifies me and, even though I’m making progress, I have a LONG way to go. Nevertheless, I am determined to prevail, so I know I have to dig even deeper.
At the end of last week, I was still on the quest for seven consecutive days without negative thoughts. The mental diet is certainly a huge challenge. Now that I’ve become the observer (or, at least, better at observing), I more easily hear the negative things that are coming from my mouth: “Let’s just get the damned things done.” “Oh, crap.” “Twit!” That one was directed at someone doing something stupid in traffic. But, if subby cannot resist the sound of my voice, then subby is thinking that I’m the twit, NOT the person at whom it was directed. And there’s the rub. Even though it’s not negative self-talk, subby accepts it as such because subby has no way of knowing that I’m not talking to myself. “Twit!” Well, that’s certainly not positive.
At the end of last week, I was thinking that “Really?” was a negative response. Now, I’m not so sure. “Really?” is better than any swear word, or calling someone a twit, stupid, or any number of other unacceptable names that subby will hear as inwardly directed. Enough pondering, about this! I’m headed to the Alliances, Diet section, to see what those in the mastermind think.
As at the end of last week, I’m still on the quest for seven positive days. This week, I greet this day with love, and I succeed!