Tough Week. I’ve never been to any kind of counseling, or therapy (maybe I should have…LOL) but I can’t imagine ANY therapist getting me to the point of self awareness I am at now.
What do I mean? Well, before MKE, I’d say my thoughts, habits, and actions, basically just flowed like a raging river. They never really took a break, and I basically just went with the flow. Now that I’m saying it, I’ve been going with the flow for 45 years. And hey…it’s not all bad. I’ve got some really wonderful things to say about my life. I’ve got a beautiful, intelligent, sorta funny, and extremely patient, wife. We have a an amazing, and healthy two year old son, who I thank GOD for every day, several times over!
However, since starting the MKE I’m becoming more and more the observer of my thoughts, and I am constantly catching myself thinking very poorly. But this is a good thing…right?
A while back, I read “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle. That book was really good, but I wasn’t ready for it at the time. I would say it was a little “deep” for me. But there was one line in that book that has stuck with me over the years, and I’ve been thinking about it a lot. Tolle said, “the moment you realize you are unconscious, you become conscious.”
I KNOW that there is so much more to come for me with the Master Key Experience, but, even if I get NOTHING else out of this, I feel it’s been worth it, because I’m observing my mind, and realizing I am actually in control. And yes…I’ve “known” this for a long time. Heck, I think I first read “Think and Grow Rich” in high school. But truth be told I’ve shrugged off the HARD WORK of thinking the right way, and I’ve allowed more and more cement to be blobbed onto me, to the point of……I don’t know. Lots of cement. The crazy thing is, I’ve put most of the cement on myself!
It’s not easy doing all the MKE exercises. The shapes, the reading of the scrolls 3x daily, reading the Master Key, reading the Blueprint Builder, the index cards, the blogging, and sometimes just getting on the webinars is a challenge for me because of the time. But….it’s FUN!
It’s starting to come together, little by little. Little things like the index cards, which I KNOW are not little. Man…that is such a great tool. This is funny to me. The other day I was saying “Do It Now” out loud. I must have been saying it for a few minutes, and my two year old son heard me. Now out of the blue, during the day, he’ll just blurt out, “do it now!” It’s awesome! Hope this isn’t cheating, but I also have him helping me find red circles.
Re-training sub-ee is hard work. But like anything else that’s worthwhile (and this might be most worthwhile thing, EVER) it’s sooooo worth it. Still have to chip away at the cement of procrastination. It’s 2am eastern stand time on Saturday morning, which is 4 hours away from deadline for this blog post. But this is improvement for me. There was a time, when I might have just blown off doing the blog post…consequences be damned.
Bye-bye old me! Get the frick out of my way!