To be quite honest, up until yesterday, I had no idea what I was going to write about my Week 3 experience. I wasn’t experiencing much. But then I had my eureka moment and in the span of 24 hours, it has changed everything for me.
Up until yesterday, my week was a struggle. Taking my mom to her daily radiation treatments, picking up my sister from post-op surgery on her foot, etc., etc., I was completely stressed out. No matter how much I tried to remind myself that I am blessed to have created a residual income that allows me to dedicate this time to my mom, since March I have spent several hours every week transporting her to doctor’s appointments and quite frankly, I wasn’t tired.
And then to top it off, my sister threatened to sue me over her ankle. She fell walking down our perfectly good stairs and doesn’t have health insurance so needed a way to get surgery paid for. We ended up paying cash for the whole surgery – a plate and three pins. I wasn’t upset about the money. Once again, we’re blessed to have it and there’s more where that money came from. It was that instead of turning to us and asking how she was going to pay for this, she tells me in a text that she thinks her only option is to sue us unless I can come up with another option. Seriously?
And lastly, every time I put my DMP in, I was being asked what was I going to sacrifice. What was I going to give up. And I was like, gee, I don’t really need to give anything up. I just need to do it. So I was getting a bit frustrated with that.
So I was truly struggling how to move forward with MKMMA. I was struggling not letting bad thoughts embed themselves into my subconscious – bad thoughts about my sister and bad thoughts about how much time it took getting my mom to all her appointments. And I was stumped on what it was I was supposed to give up or sacrifice.
But then in my “sit” time on Thursday, it came to me that, first, my sister was simply acting out of fear. I didn’t need to be mad at her about not using more wisdom in how to talk to us about the situation. So, poof, anger and resentment gone. Seriously, it was that simple – just making the decision to let it go.
And shortly after that, I had clarity that I was feeling stressed because I was letting others dictate how I was spending my time. Yes, I am doing worthy things with my time, but I was totally at the whim of everyone else. And then the words of Mark J came to me when he tells us to put our MKMMA time into our calendar. I heard his voice saying, “It isn’t real unless you write it down.” And I realized that because I had not taken the time to put things in my calendar – time for MKMMA, time to work my business – things weren’t getting done business wise and I was feeling in-congruent because my DMP will be achieved THROUGH my business.
So I got up from my “sit,” feeling no resentment or animosity toward my sister, and went and put my work schedule and my MKMMA in my schedule. And I have to say, I have accomplished more in the past 24 hours toward manifesting my needs – legacy and liberty – than I have in the past six months, and it feels awesome.
Now, you may be asking, but what about the “sacrifice” part. What are you sacrificing? I realized that I had gotten in a habit of figuring that things would get done whenever they got done. If I was sitting at my desk making phone calls and a friend called to go have lunch or something, I was in my car on the way to lunch. I have reveled in the freedom to do that. I have reveled in the freedom of being able to take care of my mom. I mean, yes, these are wonderful things. The ONLY thing that has been in my calendar were actual appointments such as coaching calls, team calls, three-way calls, etc. Other than that, nada. And being a solid six-figure earner, yes, I CAN do that. But the stress was coming from the fact that I am NOT done. I still have things I want to accomplish. My subby has told me more than once that I would finish what I set out to do if I would simply put my work time into my calendar, but I have fought that for probably four years now. Maybe that’s the flip side of “liberty” being one of your needs.
And the funny things is that when I told my mom I couldn’t do something right then because I was working, she was like, “Oh, okay, honey, whenever you can is fine with me.” My hubby came home last night and told me that I looked like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders – it has. When my best friend called me today to go to lunch and I told her, “No, I’m working until 2:00,” she said, “Well, can’t you do that later?” I told her “No, this is the time I have scheduled to work.” She was a bit confused because it’s a new good habit that I am creating, but she’ll get used to it