Week 15 – It’s time

It’s time. Time to take the bull by the horns, time to get my big girl pants on, time to take the driving sit and to push the acceleration straight and without fear. It’s my life that I am driving now and I want to drive it from a brand new Tesla car not from a horse-drawn vehicle. (Even though I love horses since I am litte and I seriously thought for very long time that I will be a horsewoman when I will be grown up)

These months I’ve been charging my inner tanks with pozitive energy, I’ve been convincing that little girl inside of me that there is no Bau-Bau unless you create it. And I feel ready now to move 100% into action and to set my ships on fire. In fact, I feel that the biggest sin I can commit right now is not to get fully commited to my Dharma. To the earnest desire of my soul. Not to give a deep meaning to all this mind blowing informations I’ve been showering my brain since september. I’ve terrorized all the people around me about the extraordinary pay off for this course. How could I possibly not show myself as an example? How much my words would value then?

Of course, I don’t have the complete picture of my Dharma, I don’t want to have it all right now. It would only frighten me. So far I only completed the edges of my  life puzzle and that’s more then enough to give me a huge work for the next months.

Today I begin a new life. A brand new life I’ve been preparing for since 3 months already. Today I shed my old skin, which hath, too long, suffered the bruises of failure and the wounds of mediocrity. And I know, it will not be perfect from the begining, I know I have to focus on the small steps, one by one and to reinvent and try on new forms of progressing and learning. And the most important I must persist no matter what. From today, I will lose not a day from my commitmet for that day cannot be retrieved nor can I substitute another for it.

I want to make this solemn oath to myself that nothing will retard my new life’s growth. No excuses, no mercy !

Funny how Scroll 1 popped into my head. It’s been playing like a broken cassette since few days already. Maybe it is a sign that Today it’s Now. And it fits well with the begining of this year. I feel already it will be a magnificent year and the begining of a new life. Scaring but excitening in the same time.

Like Pandora, I’ve opened my box and clear up all the evil from it. Now there is only Hope left inside my jar. Enough to build my Empire :)


Week 14 – Gratitude

Here we are, the last 3 hours of 2017 flowing down peacefully.   I kept this post for now because I wanted to make from it a conclusion of this whole year. I wanted to finish strong, to take the time to count my blessings, take care of the people I love and be thankful for every day of 2017.

All this week was a time of gratitude, and memories and I just wanted to fully live that feeling. And it totally hit me. Those gratitude cards played so much their role in it. Indeed, “knowledge doesn’t apply itself.” Indeed “gratitude is a cause not an effect”. Once I started to write them, once I started to think of them they made their course like a river.

This week I called all my friends and told them how big their impact in my life is and how grateful I am to see that after so many years, we still live one in each other’s heart. We actually made a very cosy house there. A holiday house were we find ourselves each time we meet or each time something important it is happening for one of us. I am grateful to have them in my life, I am grateful that all of them were with me when I needed it and they are so enthusiasts for me know.

Grateful to spend time with my family, to see my brother’s family fully applying  the Low of Giving and Receiving with a huge pay off. I am grateful to see that my sister in low (and in heart) is happy and fulfilled and she knows it and that makes her incredibly beautiful.

Grateful to have spent this Christmas around kids and believe again in Santa Claus. In fact, I think I saw him, after waiting for him with my 5 years old niece until almost 2 am  [hope her parents will never know we stayed awake for so long so I won’t get into trubles :) ] She told me she saw it on the window and when I watched, I think I saw it too. :)

Grateful to see that spark of magic and enthousiasm in a child’s eyes when you tell him Santa Claus passed by and left some presents for him under the tree.

Grateful for this journey that made me truly realize “I have been standing inside my greatness my entire life!”.

Grateful to mastermind with amazing people, to put on the table so powerful ideas. One of those ideas awaked in me an old wish I had when I was little : to grow up with a child’s heart and an adult mind. Of course I forgot about that during all those years and when I was remembering it from time to time, I used to think that’s another nonsense statement. Well, not. I think I found the way to make that statement true. Not going to write about it yet as it is still a work in progress.

Grateful to know once you step out from the mediocrity, once you stretch your mind for this beautiful world within, there is no way back. And that makes this new year knocking now at the door so much powerful.

Greatful to live and manifest already so many resolutions of 2018, to bring to reality my true Dharma.

Greatful to have had the power to forgive the only person I thaught I would never be able to. And that set me free.

Greatful to have had the courage to show my vulnerabilities. And that made me strong.

Greatful to finish this year whole, perfect, strong, powerful, harmonious and happy. This one was like a roller coaster, like the one Davene talked about in the last webinar. And I felt so afraid at the begining,  I just wanted to stop that car and breathe. Until I opened my eyes and I saw the beauty from above. And the fresh air fully invaded my lungs and my whole body and gave me a new life.

Thank you Life for all this !

Week 13 – Ode to joy !


As the world within is setting up, the world without is following like a tail  reminding me what an amazing journey has been so far and how magnificent is the mountain I am climbing since september. That little child I’ve wrote about in my 5th week post is awake now, taking the driving seat,  having so much fun there. I have never been so happy, harmonious and determinated ever before. I have so much Love to give and no time for hate. By the way, this is the passage I chose to highlight from Scroll II of Og Mandino. What a wonderful scroll, I sent it to all my friends and family and I came back to them to assure they didn’t miss to read that. Sometimes I can be a dictator :) ))

I guess they won’t mind that if the language we speack is the language of Love.

The affirmation “I am whole, perfect, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy” became my driving core now. It keeps growing and manifesting inside of me as I use it all the time and for every preson I encounter. I cannot describe how huge the pay off is. It made me grateful for everything is happening in my life. It made me enjoying every second of it. Why it took me so long to find out all of this, to be the explosion of happiness I am now ?!? Dumb me !    The informations were there but I was not able to perceive them. I found out this by reading the post from Week 12 of Sophie Wozniak. I have strongly resonated with some of her statements and one of them was: “For the only way to understand and master the Laws of Life is to practice them. Only through practice will I be able to perceive their transformative power, while without practice I will remain in the realm of concepts and ideas.” How beautiful and true is expressed. Without practice, these laws are just nice words and nothing more. But if we choose to let them gouvernate our life, how big the impact can be ?!? On us, on the others, on the whole world. Then we could be the change we want to see in the world.

Mother Teresa’s Anyway Poem

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

Week 12 – You are whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy !

Me trying to complete the 7 Days Mental Diet

I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy ! And so do you.

To me, this affirmation is a winning  tip. It is the phrase I needed to direct and control my thoughts with ease. I use it now as a powerful tool for my 7 days mental diet. At the begining, I was only repeating it for me, to clear up my thaughts when I was in the bus, when I was working, when I was cooking or cleaning or did my sport program (great way to make some mind gym). Then, I started using it for other people. I started with the ones I new they need positivity and with the ones that were still stopping me clear my chanels.  And the way I felt it was so unexpected. I felt empowerfull and strong and free. I still start over many times yet. And I am so greatful for this. What comes easy, won’t last. What lasts, won’t come easy.

I am trying now another exercice as well, in order to increasse my efforts : what if for each negative thaught I hold in me or planted in someone else, I take the responsability to plant a good one two. For instance, this week I took a cup of tea with a friend in a very turistical place in the heart of Brussels. At one point, I just wanted to use the toilet so I went down the stairts with the code from my receipt in my hand. There, I found out the direction changed the rules, making it 50 cents for each person, client or not. It was marked on the wall, I just didn’t read it. There was a kind lady at the entrance in charge for the payment and responsable as well to maintain the place clean . Unfortunately I didn’t have my wallet with me and my first reaction was to be pissed of about it. I left and I didn’t even turn back to say thank you when she wished me a good day. Later I felt so wrong about my reaction, for making her day worst only “thanks” to my ego. So I decided to buy her a flower and to appologies her. I will go this evening there, looking forward to The following passage from Haanel lesson this week inspired me particulary: “The time and thought which most persons waste in aimless effort would accomplish wonders if properly directed with some special object in view.” Annalysing my thoughts, I realized how many “wasted moments” I have, when I let my mind roam randomly. It is ok to dream sometimes. But not now, I am in a full process of methamorphosys, a process of becoming that beautiful and graceful butterfly that beat his larva. I don’t have time to waste my thoughts and I can’t afford to hold hate or negativity in my heart. I don’t have enough time or room for that . I only have time to love and to find good in every person I encounter.

Week 11 – “Put your heart, mind, intellect and soul even to your smallest acts. This is the secret for succes! ” (Swami Shivananda)

Yeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyy, the dreambord is on my wall. And the goals are manifesting. Two of them. It just started.

It all started in my head, in the world within. For 1 month I was just reading my DMP trying to be enthousiast and to accept the statements I wrote as a real fact that must happen. The limit dates for the first 2 goals are quite close, 4th of Jully 2018 and 15th of December 2018.  While I was reading passively my DMP during October, I start feeling that the clock is ticking and that I have to move to action. And then, a feeling of determination was born and grew bigger in my head and my heart. Until one night when I felt it is there big and strong enough to manifest. Your faith can move mountains and it is true. It is so true !! Once you eliminate doubt and fear, there are no limits in what you can acheive.

Those last weeks I got to know better and closer the future Cristina. I got to like her a lot and to appreciate her acheivements. She is not a stranger anymore, she is full of grace and power looking at me with kindness in her eyes, taking my hand and saying I can be what I will to be. She is talking to me with so much enthousiasm and confidence I just trust her. I see the scene like we are both on a bridge and she is trying to get me on the other side. And somehow I belive I can do it if she did it.

Thank you for everything !

Week 8, 9, 10 – Don’t look back, you are not going that way !!


Those weeks I felt more like the hamster in the video. No, not the white one, the orange little one. Going ahead with all the enthousiasm and then getting trapped for not keeping the rythm. It all started with the Press Release – a huge chalenge that I wanted to do it right and in the end I didn’t do it at all. After that, all the exercices that we have to do, dreambord, recording and even the cards were postponed.

Even though this  slow down, I had the feeling that I keep on going in this new direction. I felt my new blueprint is keep installing and the old one is becoming less transparent and more heavy in my thaughts. Those weeks I realized that this journey is for life !! It’s a life changer. Once you get to know the power inside of you, once you unleashed it, it can only go forward. I learned a lot about my strenghts and I have met my limitations and try to negociate with them in order to transform them into strentghts as well. I cannot feel other then amazed and curious like a child on Christmas eve when I think at all the treasures that are to be discovered for the rest of MKMMA.

And the pay off is already huge. So many people around me are asking what is the reason for which I am shining so much from the inside, what is going on in my life now? I keep on telling them about this cours with the excitemend of a little puppy that wants your attention. I keep telling everyone about all the fairy tail word you can create in your head and manifest in your external word. In fact, I live the love and happiness I keep receiving since september !

I am still strugling with the 7 days mental diet, there are things that need time to get clear. But I am enjoying the process. I notice faster when I am about to make a critic and I try to stop myself. I know that I will succed one day and that day “I will walk tall among the men and they will know me not, for today I am a new man with a new life”.

Week 7 – Built curiosity not resistance

I am writing my post for week 7 just after the webbinar of week 8. So late and yet I am so happy for the new exciting discovery. Yeeeyyyyy, I got another tiny little piece of my puzzle  and that makes me happy like a kid :) :) :)

This webbinar was exactly what I needed to be back on track with enthousiasm. Thank you Mark and Davene for such an inspiring speach !

The truth is that this week was a bit challenging, with some ups and downs. I’ve been searching all days for that positive thing to inspire me, fill me with enthousiasm and make me dig dipper inside of me for the kid I burried there . That’s why I’ve been so late writing about my journey.

The piece of the puzzle was there every moment and I’ve been aware about it but not grateful enough to understand it. It was in the “Start Over” moments of my Mental Diet. I started over so many times I lost their count. And each time I was getting stronger and more willing to fight against that state of mind where you feed your angry peptides. Each time I observed faster and more in detail how these parazite thoughts were making their nids in my mind. I observed the “big elephants” and after few days of trying to be clean-thought, the more subtiles ones, the ants on the back of the elephants.

Negative thaughts are like mosquitos during a summer night. They suck you, don’t let you rest but you don’t want to wake up and chase them because you are trying to stay confy in your bed and to have a good sleep. That’s not a good sleep and you will wake up in the morning full of bites to scratch.

Even if I didn’t succeeded yet my 7 days clean (today was the best day so far), I became much more aware about how many “mosquitos” are disturbing me and how good I can be when I put some effort to chase them out of my mind. And yes, sometimes it requires a bit of effort. Even though you try to think at something else, “the mosquitos” are there, preparing to attack again. You need another though as strong as the negative one to chase them for good. The index card are just the miracle pil that  works every time for me.

I will do my best this week so I can write my next post whitouth having another “Start over” in the meantime. Plus, I’ve notice that when I keep a positive mental attitude, kind feedbacks from others are popping all the time making it easier.



Week 6 – Condolence to Fear and Insecurity

This week I had the first manifest of my new Blueprint. It was so interesting to notice the mental process that determinates how I perceive the world.

We are generaly so used with our way of thinking that we do not observe the origin of our thoughts and their impact in our behavior.  They just sneak into our heads and make the things happen, letting us belive that it is all about the world withouth. I realized suddenly this week that I used to (and I still do, hey my Blueprint is far to be built yet – the plans are currently in the hands of the architect ) pass my thoughts through a filter of insecurity just to prepare myself mentally for a possible failure. And that “What if” hidden on the background of my thoughts is pulling all the strings, generating fear and eating my self confidence. It was not easy to become aware about it because I am generally a positive and open person, assuming my Red color personality and doing the things on my own way.

This week, I was on my way to a lindy hop dance event when Fear and her best friend-Insecurity knocked at the door.  And I left them waitting in the cold until they were gone. The evening was just like a fairy tale and I really felt it was influenced by the set up of my mind.

My goal now is to teach my mind to keep the door close for these 2 unwilling friends in order to stop them sneaking into my World Within . If I can do this with all the things happening in my life and not just with a fun social evening that would be good anyway, witouth to much effort, then I can really be what I will to be !

Benjamine Clementine – Condolence

Week 5 – Bonus of happiness

The exercice of Hanel from this week is from far my favorite and the most astonishing I did until now. I think I start to gett it or I found a key piece to match in my puzzle. A big puzzle with tiny little pieces that will lead me to the little child I left alone inside of me, who knows when ?!? I am wondering if that little child is getting bored, or angry or sad or she feels abandoned. “Hang out you little, I am comming back after you !”

We all had that morning when we wake up after a nice dream and we start the day with a bonus of happines. We probably don’t remember what our dreams were about but we keep inside that feeling of satisfaction. It can happen the same with a nightmare unfortunately. We wake up miserable and grateful it was just a dream. This kind of dreams we cannot control (at least from what I know). Either are happy, either not.

With Hanel exercice, I can dream whatever I want, wheneaver I want. Of course I chose to create a dear image that is in my Dharma and waiting to materialize. I worked on that sensation of satisfaction that manifest first in my neck and shoulders. Then it goes deeper inside and transforms into a feeling. Feeling of achievement and satisfaction. How it feels to be already there, in your dream. It is so constructive to focus not on a mental thought but on the feeling created by that thought in your body. I take this exercice like a child game. That type of game when you build your reality to fit the character you play. I don’t even do it with the only purpose to materialize it but for the sake of that sweet moment. Of course, if I look back, most of the things I asked from life, showed up in a form. So I trust that this mental image that accompanied me during this week is just a teaser of what my life will be. And a daily bonus of happiness.

Week 4 – Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything. (George Bernard Shaw)

First month in MKS and I am still very grateful to take part in this journey. I don’t know what blowed my mind the most from the new informations I got this month : the law of substitution, the story about peptides, identifying the “cement” in my life, knowing that a good habbit can simply remplace a bad one, knowing that fear can turn of the light inside you or the fact that I finally learned to meditate and to control my thoughts. This month I felt spoiled and showered with positive energy. Plus, I just came back for a short holiday to find the Welcome post card from MKSMMA. I was so nicely impressed.

I keep on thinking about this law of substituion. The story that I chose to think of when negativity is knocking the door is one so dear to me. It happened when I was an adult but it was actually a window to the kid inside me. I felt that same “the magic exist” that we have when we are kids, innocents and naives.

Looking back, the last few months of my life were probably the most difficult I have ever lived and all my natural self trust was collapsing like a domino. I knew that I had to do something in order to build that self trust again and to eliminate the fear. Now I am congratulating myself and my friend, Dominica – who recommended me this course for stepping into this program. Only one month past but I feel already like a future butterfly. Yet into the process of eating “leaves” to grow strong and big but knowing that a beautiful butterfly will break the larva from the inside as soon as it will be ready. Until then, I am excited to stay attached to this changing mind work in progress.