Week 15 – It’s time

It’s time. Time to take the bull by the horns, time to get my big girl pants on, time to take the driving sit and to push the acceleration straight and without fear. It’s my life that I am driving now and I want to drive it from a brand new Tesla car not from a horse-drawn vehicle. (Even though I love horses since I am litte and I seriously thought for very long time that I will be a horsewoman when I will be grown up)

These months I’ve been charging my inner tanks with pozitive energy, I’ve been convincing that little girl inside of me that there is no Bau-Bau unless you create it. And I feel ready now to move 100% into action and to set my ships on fire. In fact, I feel that the biggest sin I can commit right now is not to get fully commited to my Dharma. To the earnest desire of my soul. Not to give a deep meaning to all this mind blowing informations I’ve been showering my brain since september. I’ve terrorized all the people around me about the extraordinary pay off for this course. How could I possibly not show myself as an example? How much my words would value then?

Of course, I don’t have the complete picture of my Dharma, I don’t want to have it all right now. It would only frighten me. So far I only completed the edges of my  life puzzle and that’s more then enough to give me a huge work for the next months.

Today I begin a new life. A brand new life I’ve been preparing for since 3 months already. Today I shed my old skin, which hath, too long, suffered the bruises of failure and the wounds of mediocrity. And I know, it will not be perfect from the begining, I know I have to focus on the small steps, one by one and to reinvent and try on new forms of progressing and learning. And the most important I must persist no matter what. From today, I will lose not a day from my commitmet for that day cannot be retrieved nor can I substitute another for it.

I want to make this solemn oath to myself that nothing will retard my new life’s growth. No excuses, no mercy !

Funny how Scroll 1 popped into my head. It’s been playing like a broken cassette since few days already. Maybe it is a sign that Today it’s Now. And it fits well with the begining of this year. I feel already it will be a magnificent year and the begining of a new life. Scaring but excitening in the same time.

Like Pandora, I’ve opened my box and clear up all the evil from it. Now there is only Hope left inside my jar. Enough to build my Empire :)

Hope

11 thoughts on “Week 15 – It’s time

  1. I am really enjoying your transformation and also see how mine is similar!
    Thanks for the reminder to take it slow and work through.

    1. Thank you so much Gena. It is amazing how every piece of this puzzle we are creating since September starts to find it’s own place and shows it’s importance.

  2. Great stuff Cristina get into that Tesla car and drive like you have always owned it and have the right to drive it – we have all been there with the old blueprint so well done for shaking it off and having the courage to find your dharma.

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