Monthly Archives: March 2018

Week 23 – MKE

May the Road Rise to Meet You

MI Irish road rural istock

My father passed away this week while I was singing this song Sunday morning, at the Center for Spiritual Living:

May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be at your back
May the sunshine warm upon your face

May the rain fall softly on your fields
And until we meet again
May you keep safe
In the gentle
Loving arms of God

And it was during this passage that I felt him leave. I felt him come to me, and say his goodbye:

For everything there is a season
A time for loving
A time to for letting go
In all things God is near
Always guiding your way…

It was all I could do to keep from crying, because I knew. I felt him, and I was grateful.  I knew the day before that he was leaving his body. I knew that it was going to be within 24 hours, even though the doctors said they didn’t know when.

Before studying the MKE, I would have felt guilt for not being there with him, for not calling the priest to do the last rites. I would have felt guilt for forgetting to call the night before, after my performance. For not going to see him two weeks earlier. But I have been practicing self-acceptance. I understand the Laws of the Universe – everything happens as it should.

Using the MKE practices, I have been able to be present, to honor my siblings as we walk through the whole process of saying goodbye, letting go, going through finances, arranging the funeral and announcements, bagging his things. I am soft, and offer love, a gift, a compliment, a prayer. I tune into my papa with love and appreciation; with beautiful memories of a simple man who worked hard and loved the land and his family.


Law of Least Effort:  Acceptance
I will practice Acceptance. Today I will accept people, situations, circumstances, and events as they occur. I will know that this moment is as it should be, because the whole universe is as it should be. I will not struggle against the whole universe by struggling against this moment. My acceptance is total and complete. I accept things as they are in this moment, not as I wish they were.

I Accept all that comes to me. I take Responsibility for my actions and reactions. I practice Defenselessness by being an observer, softening my mind, listening to my solar plexus, and thinking before speaking.


Adeus Pai, Que você descanse no Seu colo.

Dante’s Prayer, Loreena McKennit



Week 22A – MKE

Silence and the 5 Tools


Mona Brata – Practicing Silence

Since I have work scheduled throughout the week, and have to interact with others, I have chosen to turn off the music while driving and cooking, etc. I SIT longer and deeper. I don’t talk when in a group of people – just listen. I practice Mona Brata (the Sanskrit term for this) while walking, and in public places. I take breaks throughout the day, and just rest in Silence. The mere fact of being aware of being Silent is helping tremendously.

Using the 5 Tools


Hurt Feelings – Gratitude is First

Remembering, when he snapped at me 3 times in two days, not to go to tears. Something must be going on with him. Is he hungry? Is some need not getting met? Observations:   Hurt Feelings = I care about my goals. What are my goals? Connection. To be respected, treated with respect, talked to respectfully. Speaking to this truth in my Power. The hurt little girl is taking a break this week. And I remember that I am Nature’s Greatest Miracle! Yes I am! Feeling into it. Not allowing someone else to define who I am. Light bulb!

Anger, Fear, Compassion, and Gratitude


My sister taking over my father’s estate and determining what is going to happen to it without consulting with me. She has always treated me like a child. I begin to stand up for myself. Watch anger rise. Massive energy. Channel it. What would I like to see happen? I engage in a power struggle, but really, I am communicating my personal goals. I expect to be treated like an adult. I want to be included in the decision making process. Fear – afraid of not getting my due. Action:  making sure that I have a say in the process of distributing the assets. I am Worthy.

I sit with this anger for a few minutes. Then, I surrender. What is the real goal here? To stay connected to my sister. We are about to lose our father, and another sister. We cannot afford to lose each other in the process. The house and money are just things – unimportant. Hop off the Bully Pulpit. What is more productive? “Use energy towards DMP and productivity”. I sit and read my MKE assignments. Yes!

A day goes by, and I begin to understand. She is afraid of my father dying. She wants to be in control, because she feels out of control. These feelings belong to her, not to me. What must I do? Be grateful and show compassion. Stay connected, and keep my eye on the goal.

My other sister Elizabeth calls me on the phone and tells me that Maria is calling her every day, and disturbing her peace. I tell her that Maria is scared of her and my father dying. We must give her love and compassion, and be grateful for her in our lives. “Give gratitude that she is making you feel alive in this moment!” My sister and I laugh, and laugh. She gets it. What would Jesus do? I ask her. “Oh!” she says, “You’re pulling out the big guns!” Jejejeje!

My sister is beautiful, and I tell her how grateful I am for her on this earth. After our conversation, I text Maria and thank her for keeping me in the loop, tell her I love her, and ask if she needs me to come down to help with things.

And I continue to remember:  I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy!

Week 22 – MKE

5 Tools for Expansion

Growth Green Road Sign with Dramatic Clouds and Sky.

Gosh, what a beautiful webinar this week – my favorite so far; the Crown Jewel of the MKE! These are the tools I have been searching for, and now they are here! Let’s look at them.



Fear brings intense energy and focus; converts thoughts to actions.

Today, I wanted to call an old friend/colleague of mine to ask for comp tickets to his show in April. He is on a reunion tour with a world famous band. I felt afraid of being rejected, and had feelings of being small. I took the fear as “energy to move me forward”, and called with enthusiasm and left a message. Mysteriously, his phone kept pocket dialing me, and I would hear him with the band during a photo shoot, and warming up. After the fourth time, I kept shouting his name so he would hear me. He was very friendly, inquired about my life, and told me that he was about to go onstage. I teased him about “pocket” dialing me, and he joked back. I checked the date, and this is their very first night of the tour. He called me just 20 minutes before they were about to go on?! His phone pocket dialed me one more time, and I had a fleeting thought to pick up and listen to the concert from his pocket. :)

Hurt Feelings


Hurt feelings remind us to care for our goals; the other side of “pity” is “passion”

This week, after my salsa class, I wanted to take the Afro-Cuban drumming class. The organizer said that it was a closed class for advanced drummers, insinuating that I could not join. I knew that he had invited a friend of mine (who had no drumming experience) to attend, and my feelings were hurt. Afro-Cuban drumming is one of my passions, and I was not to be deterred. I asked the instructor, if I could join his class. “Of course you can, everyone is welcome here!” he said with great enthusiasm. I joined the class, and played with passion! I had taken African drumming classes before, and have worked out of this genre of music for decades. I felt powerful in my body and mind that I had cared for my goals, and listened to my passion.



Anger is a huge surge of energy – verdad! Use it towards productivity. It’s a power tool, it’s got to be directed somewhere, so use it wisely!

The same fellow who didn’t want me in the drumming class was trying to redirect me while I was dancing in the Rueda Casino (Cuban salsa) class. He kept talking to me as if I didn’t know what I was doing, and at one point put his hands on my body to turn me. I felt the anger surging up. The next time around, I put my hand out and said, “Don’t talk!” I have been dancing salsa since I was a child, and this [hombre] was trying to undermine me. Even though I am facing this adversity, I am determined to take this class. I will send love to him, hold strong to my boundaries, and keep my eye on my goal.



Guilt is self-directed anger. It is validation that your spiritual compass is working; guilt creates a window for honesty and compassion.

I am facing some huge guilt around a personal issue. How do I behave fairly in the situation? Sit and ask myself the question, “What am I afraid of?” This is a good lesson for me this week, and something I am going to dive into deeply. First is Gratitude. Thank you Guilt.



Shift from constrictive to expansive. We are worthy of anything we want, but not everything at the same time.

When people reschedule time with me, feelings of inadequacy arrive. This week, I have been practicing turning those feelings into inquiry – what is there for me to do elsewhere? It has been very helpful. I search and search my brain to see what mental list I can come up with while waiting, and there is always something wonderful in front of me. I catch up on MKE work – the webinars, reading,etc. Or I catch up on music practice, writing charts; making phone calls, or making new lists. And then, the questions arrive:  Am I worthy of love? Am I interesting enough? Attractive enough? Etc., etc…. So, when we are feeling “unworthy”, how about this little quote for starters?

I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy!