I sang at the Center for Spiritual Living this weekend, and Frances, the practitioner did a presentation on “our greatest fears”. I chose “fear of abandonment” as the prominent fear for me. We did a ritual around it, invoking awareness, love, healing and forgiveness. It helped me to become aware of the dominant fear in my life, and to be present when it shows up, cause it’s going to show up – this, I have not yet mastered. In the end, we learned that the greatest fear is the fear of abandonment from God. This encouraged me to amp up my spiritual practices, and my connection to the Divine – one of my PPNs.
Working this program, I have found that I am just beginning to assimilate some of the principles, and I am full of wonder and awe! I feel like a baby in the process, and trust that these practices will strengthen me, as I put more of myself into it. Mark’s tool to put “I promise” in front of the one thing you are having the most difficulty with has helped me this week. Success! I am reading GS 3xs per day, and I feel elated! And what’s more, this month I earned double what I usually take in monthly.
This week the Universe challenged me in several relationships with others. Jealousy, jealousy, anger and hurt. I found myself remembering not to react or engage as these individuals were reacting in front of me. I softened, felt and sent love, and became vulnerable in my heart and belly, coming to tears at times. I laughed, and released my own fears through an “offering” ritual. I remembered to think of something beautiful and good about the person I was angry at; and remembered that something good was going to come out of the clash – and it did every time. Thank you Universe for being you!
My comadre and Master Guide Deanna helped me through a rough spot today: “Don’t live in the fear. Focus on what you desire, and not how it appears.” Then, a few moments of her sweet time on the phone. “Be clear about your intentions and in your communications. Don’t be afraid of the reaction. Work the Color Codes. Keep focused on your DMP manifestation.”
And then, the MKE reading – cause and effect; clash and cohesion; ebb and flow. And then, I remembered that yes, this Universe is an expression of cause and effect, Shiva and Shakti. How did I forget? I wanted everything to be Disnelandia! And then, reading The 7 Laws of the Mind. Work it! Work it! Do it now! Do it now!
Posted on my bathroom mirror:
I promise to devote 10 minutes daily to myself the development of self-confidence.
I promise to cause others to believe in me because I believe in myself.
I am a self-reliant and successful person.
I always keep my promises. Anjali S.
I needed to write today, as I have been feeling tender and vulnerable for several days. The feelings are still there, and I have been moving through them with grace. I am grateful for this course and how I see my thoughts and actions already shifting.
Working on this beautiful song takes me to the cosmic realm:
Power Flower by Stevie Wonder